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Chinese Proficiency Test

august 21 2014

I woke up this afternoon asking myself how slow I was moving forward in my Chinese proficiency. While I admit there is no hurry to be fluent in Chinese mandarin, I did commit myself in a goal that by December of 2014, I would achieve at least a conversational fluency which is enough to use for my exchange language. I seem to be forgetting that because I was too busy thinking of ways to have more business that I had forgotten the commitments I made to myself. Thanks to constant reminders of my Chinese friends who are waiting for me to have time for them, I feel guilty that I’m falling behind my studies and disappointing a lot of people who would love to learn some English in exchange for Chinese lessons.

So, I will get back on tract again, while I still can catch up but before doing that I tested myself how much I know using online CPT. The result didn’t made me happy nor sad. I could say it’s mama-huhu (so-so) because I know I could have done better if I was as keen as I used to be in self-studying.

Online schooling will teach you how to manage your time and how to be committed. At school, we learn to blame the teachers or our classmates if we fail, but online schooling taught me that no one is responsible for your own education but yourself. If you have discipline, know your priorities and take responsibility in what you do, you can get a good grade. If not, well… you know there’s no one to blame. 

Well, enough guilt and self-blame. I guess I gotta do what I can to catch up. Can you believe that it’s almost -ber months and in a few more months… it will be a new year? Time will never stop for no one. Do what you can do day. Because sometimes “later” becomes “never”.

Anyway, anyone wants to exchange language with me? If you know the standard mandarin, I’ll be happy to make another friend and learn from one another. thanks!




Something BIG!

It’s been such a long time since my last post. I’ve been busy with writing, posting in some blogs I joined and doing exchange language.

I gotta say that my day is never boring. There are even times when I would only stop writing at 4am, sleep and write the moment I wake up again.

And this morning, I decided to start working on the lay out of my first ever book and I want to publish it this year. That’s right! I got over the shyness to show off my work and I have now the guts to even self-published my poems and give it to friends and family and hopefully sell a few of them.

Of course, I’m not expecting to profit on my first book. Besides, just seeing them in the hands of my love ones is more than enough. I can’t wait to collaborate with some people and I know this would be a great adventure! I’m really excited and full of butterflies.

I just can’t believe that I’m really doing something I’ve been dreaming to do a long time ago. It took me 10 years to have the courage to do it and I don’t even need somebody to push me to do it. I’m writing short stories, had written many poems and earning from writing in some websites and now I’m even thinking to publish this year. I’m overwhelmed, if this is a dream, please don’t wake me up.

Of course, there’s work to do first before I celebrate. I need to make sure that I comply to the law about writing and copyrighted works. I’m going to talk  to some of my friends to collaborate with me and I have a few people in mind.

So, I guess I would be writing all for the rest of the year and of course, I’m still learning mandarin and I do want to be fluent at it, but this time… I’m in no hurry. There is no more reason for me to do so.

All is well. It’s better to lose love than not to have loved at all.

xxx Yangmei